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Sleeping Paralysis Attack: I could have died, because no one was there to help me.

After being sick for two weeks I was fine and I had to leave for college after two days. It was the first time that I was on a medical leave. College started just one week before I became sick, so I had not read much and that's why I decided to read a novel. I called my friend Devendra Pratap to help get me a novel. He took me to Aashram where I could found novels of my choice. I had just started to read the names of the books to select one, when I saw Shiva Trilogy, which was at my eye level. I decided to take that with me. I took the first book of the trilogy, which was "Immortals of Meluha". When I was leaving I said " Dev, I'll complete it in one day". He said "Dude, 450 pages?" "Toh?", I asked. Dev replied "If you'll complete it in a day, next lassi in Pacheria hotel is from my side; and your time starts now." I accepted the challenge with a smile on my face and left. 

Aashram is a coaching center conducted by a govt school lecturer (Now Principle) Mr Praveen Bhatiya. He provides material for Administrative Exams to all the students at very low price so that students with poor background can afford it, and if any student is not able to pay the fee and does not have a good family background to pay the hostel fee to live in Suratgath then he provides them the hostel facility free of cost.

I came to my home after that bet and was ready to win it and show Devendra. I went for a walk with my Dad after dinner and I was tired that day so I went to bed early, without reading a single page of the book.

Next day I woke up at 8'oclock (in morning, because mostly its 8 in evening). I hardly wake up this early in vacations, but it was the day of the bet and I had to complete the novel in a whole day. So I came downstairs, had my breakfast, went back to my room and started reading.

It was approximately 10 and I was continuously reading since 8:30 am. I hadn't studied for this long with full concentration since joining college, so I was feeling dehydrated and was drinking water again and again to get energy. I was reading 40-50 pages per hour to complete the book before 5 or 6pm. I was taking nap in between so my rate was getting slow and it was getting harder and harder to complete it before 5pm.

Suddenly I felt something weird. I felt some vibrations in my right hand. I thought I was feeling so because of lack of sleep and maybe because blood circulation had been stopped by sleeping on the hand. So I got up to wash my face so I could start reading again. When i was pulling door handle I felt that my hand is not doing well again. I tried with the other hand, and went out of the room. It was hot outside so I returned to the room asap. I lied down on the bed and started reading the book again. After some time i thought of drinking water and left the bed to go towards the table for a glass of water. but i couldn't make that happen. I couldn't hold that glass of water. After that glass, I fell down on the floor. A pen was there on the floor; I tried to pick it up but i couldn't move my hand. I tried to press the sos message button on my phone but it was on table and i was unable to stand up. I was tired of trying to stand up and to move my hand, which was too heavy to move. So after trying a lot I became unconscious.... I was on the floor....

My mother came after some time and was trying to wake me up. She was afraid to see me in this situation, but then i regained consciousness again. I woke up. Mommy was asking what happened. Oh god, it was a bad dream. Mom asked me what happened, I replied nothing. She knows that i have this problem of sleeping paralysis. So she asked me to relax and to take some long breaths. I closed my eyes. I said "I need some space". She left and I cried because i had the worst thoughts in my mind, about some of my other dreams which made me cry. I wiped my tears and went for a bath.

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