अन्तर्मुख

A thought crossed my mind right before I was leaving the office on the Friday night. What if the concept of rebirth is true? I haven’t written for long due to lack of sufficient arguments for anything. Life has been peaceful recently. If there are issues at hand then mind has something to grind onto. Maybe this is cost of the creativity. Cost as suffering, if you can think you can think in any direction beyond normal human capacity, even on the axis of how bad things can go. There is no limit to minds imagination as it can go through all the permutation and combination of worse in a matter of seconds, like a quick death. I won’t say I am creative, as not everybody is creative, as it is rare. Like not everybody is a neurosurgeon, not everybody get to go to IIT, not everybody gets to be the best in the field, similarly not everybody is creative. I recall Kumar Varun’s conversation with someone where he shared one of things is grandfather used to tell hi...

“How does she look?” asked his friends. This is never meant to answer with honesty. You get to lie about that. Because no matter how she looks they are going to make fun of her and one might not have the appetite for that. “Square face, small forehead, eyes and teeth like a rabbit, straight nose, small ears like a kid, and with all this she looks full of life and excited about life all the time.” He thought but didn’t say a word, because he knew what would happen. “Man, say it. How does she look ?” another friend asked. “Just like another girl. Just that her eyes and teeth are like a rabbit.” He said. “Oh, rabbit means bunny. that’s a nice name.” friends joked and all laughed at the same time. He too smiled while thinking of her. Time flies. The family welcomed Radha as their daughter. Her excitement about marriage was on another level. Be it an invitation card or food menu or decoration of the ...

A few months back, I came across a  YouTube short  of  Slavoj Žižek . I don’t watch reels or shorts as it’s a rabbit hole. Once you’re in, getting out is hard. That reel was a part of his interview and had a story.  Žižek  is a Slovenian philosopher. A girl came to  Žižek  and told him that when his last lover saw her naked, he told her to lose a few extra pounds. Her lover thinks she will be perfect once she loses 3 -4 extra pounds.  Žižek  told her not to lose that extra pound. He said that imperfection is the cause of desire. This imperfection held him close to her. He might lose interest in her once she loses those extra pounds. It is called the objective cause of desire in psychoanalysis. That brought two things to my mind. First, we are humans and naturally wired to find negatives anywhere. It is just simple threat protection mechanism. So if the girl secrets the extra pound, his partner’s eyes would the...

Masan was the first movie they saw together. Then they decided to visit Kashi someday. After visiting all the temples in this magical city, they fell in love with this. They would go to a place, stay there for a few hours to absorb the vibes of the place and go to next. Now the only place that was left was Ghats for which Banaras is known. Something changed in them after visiting that place, especially Shivanshu. He could see all his vulnerabilities through his eyes and was having anxiety now. They spent more time in Ghats compared to spending in other places. Vulnerabilities are valuable. We realize that very late. A vulnerability has a cost attached to it. Each time you are exposed your value reduces so one has to be careful about that. Perhaps there is nothing more valuable than life for us. We realize its true value when we see death for the first time. That is what happened with them in Kashi Ghats. Now Kashi was the keyword for them. Anyone can ask to meet in Kashi but anothe...